by Fionn Zarubica
What is self-doubt? And who is the self that is doing the doubting? Is it a credible witness?
Doubt, of any kind, sets in when we do not trust or accept what is; when we think that there should be something more.
The Original Sin was not about an apple and an afternoon romp in a garden, it was when we humans looked upon perfection and decided that there was more and that we wanted it.
We created the illusion of separation from perfect love and busied it up with misdirecting road signs, all promising to lead to a non-existent destination. We have been wandering a desert of our own creation, trying to remember the way back to a place we never left, ever since.
The word for doubt in Sanskrit is Vicikitsa; it also means indecision. Being of two minds and not knowing which one to accept.
Despite the promise of unlimited choices, there are only ever two options to choose between. There is the mind of conflict and the mind of peace. And between those two choices, there is only one that sets us on the path to a self-awareness that has no acquaintance with self-doubt.
The question to ask one’s self is who is the one doing the choosing? Is it the true self or the impersonator? Is it the doubted or the doubter?
The impersonator, the doubter, would lead one to believe that the true self is inherently flawed and cannot make good choices; which of course is not so and never could be, as the true self is perfect, infinite and unassailable in every way.
And that is why self-doubt is really something of an oxymoron.
So, when in doubt, what choice are you going to make? Are you going to listen to the mind of conflict or the mind of peace?
What can you do when visited by self-doubt or indecision?
Retreat into the stately calm of the centered self;
Come into the present, breathe the healing breath of life, and just be;
Choose how YOU want to feel.
Choose truth. Choose peace. Choose you.
For you are Love itself. And, there are no other choices.
Love is all that matters!