by Fionn Zarubica

zarubica-june_2013-1What part of us does not realize that we are spiritual beings having a human experience?

I am always interested in the tentative relationship people here in the Balkans have with open dialogue about spirit.

On the one hand there is a keen yearning and hunger for it, coupled with an innate spiritual intelligence.

On the other hand, there is a little wall people here like to dive behind.  They appear to be listening, ever polite, but one can see in the eyes that they have left the arena.

Maybe it has something to do with religious values, or a lack thereof – the idea that in some way talking about spirit flies in the face of belief or perhaps underscores an absence of belief.  

But mostly I think it has to do with a fear of intimacy.  Not the intimacy of a group or tribe, but an intimate and personal relationship with the Source.

Many of us struggle with a longing and yet an unwillingness to become intimate with anything.  The capacity to engage in healthy intimacy is a part of growing up.

In St. Paul’s Epistle to the Corinthians (13:11) he said:

When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

In the last millennia it was accepted that the majority of us should conduct ourselves as children and look to our leadership for guidance. 

Today we are being called upon to rise up into ourselves, to accept our accountability as healthy adults, singular beings, autonomous and powerful individuals who make our own decisions.

No longer can we harm our neighbors without cognizance of the fact that we thereby harm ourselves. No longer can we rape and pillage the planet without acknowledging that we destroy our own lifeline and beauty. No longer can we blame others for our circumstances or for our spiritual patchiness.  

We cannot pretend that we are not each and every one of us individual super-powers, with a connection to the Source and thereby able to make new more powerful – and intimate – choices.

I am not by any means implying that we should abandon the life view we had as children, the innocent, untarnished, spiritually rich and glorious vision of our life’s potential.  But I am saying that we cannot any longer pretend that we, as adults, are not responsible and connected.

All of this is a laboratory.  Life is an experiment.  None of it is lasting and none of it is damning.  But what we make of it makes us.  

At the end of the day, it does not matter to “all that is” if we destroy ourselves and the planet – it will not affect “all that is”.  But it matters to us in terms of how we have managed the resources we have been given to play with. (Yes, I just said play).

The super consciousness will not falter if we explode the here and now.  We will.  And we will have to redress this in ourselves for as long as it takes until we get it right.  

So what about trying to get it right now and saving ourselves the trouble of the redo?

What part of us does not realize that we are spiritual beings having a human experience?

What part of us does not want to get down, dirty and intimate?


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